Well, this has really been a very hectic week with late nights. There is no one night this week that i slept before 3.30am. Its all due to the IDIOT FM PROJECT!!!!!!! It took up so much of my time. Stayed up almost every night to type out the report. Finally completed and handed in the report which was 32 pages long. Hopefully the tutor appreciates it. Haiz... more projects due in the weeks to come. Worst still, there are presentations for the projects. I really can't present sia... get so stressed up every time i present that i will get tongue-tied.

Mon night was the lastest night i ever slept. Can you imagine i actually slept at 5am in the morning??????? Nope nope... not bcos i was rushing for my project, but bcos i sent my roomie to the hospital. I knew she wasn't really in a good mood the whole day, but i din know what was bothering her. I tried to talk to her and crack some jokes to make her feel happier, but it din seemed to work. It turned out that her depression was acting up again. When i came back from the toilet at 3am in the morning, i found her missing from her bed. I was so worried. Went around the block to look for her, but couldn't find her. Finally got her through her phone, and she told me that she was going down to NUH. Ask her if she would be fine alone or that she needed company, and she told me needs company coz she took a bottle of sleeping pills!!!!!!!

I got a shock when i heard that. Luckily, it turned out that i misunderstood what she said. What she actually meant was that she took a bottle of sleeping pills with her, not ate a bottle of sleeping pills. But, I still rush down to the hospital with her to accompany her to see a psychiatrist due to her depression. I will feel bad if i just left her alone like that, even though i knew i had morning lessons the next day. The doctor said that she was basically fine but had to stay in hospital for observation. So, i took a cab back alone. By the time i was back in hall, its already about 5am. Haiz... that silly girl actually went off alone without telling me where she is going in the middle of the night... DOESN'T SHE KNOW TAT I WILL BE WORRIED????? Well, had a little talk with her about it, and she promised me that she will keep me informed next time. Well, at least she was apologetic about it.

Sigh... i couldn't do with only 3 hours of sleep... so i skipped the 8.30am class next morning. And i missed out on an impt topic that was taught tat day... sigh sigh... guess i will have to spend extra time to catch up... and this means MORE LATE NIGHTS!!!!!!!!

Me and Cheryl had a long talk today about the team. I understand a lot of things that are not shown on the surface, about how we felt, and how our girls team can be closer. She asked me to go over to hall 13 also. I didn't promise her anything, but im seriously considering, coz' the terms that she gave are quite attractive. Single room, being neighbours with her, and also staying in the same block with my whole clique of friends.

Not that the people in hall 12 are not nice... but i just don't get along as well with them. Don and John are roomies, so they have each other for company. Same goes for shuzhen and wei tin, but i have no one. I hate walking alone for lessons every morning, i hate eating my lunch and dinner alone. I hate it when i want to find someone to talk to, my closest friends aren't beside me.

If i go over there, i would like to bring my juniors with me. Didn't tell anyone about how i felt, except shuzhen. I thought she will understand. She didn't seem too pleased about it. She says that she can imagine the look ppl are going to give me if i move over, coz' im pulling a group of ppl with me. She says if i go over, no problem, but at least do hall 12 a favour by passing them the names my juniors. When she said that, i was really quite hurt. Bcos i felt that im being made used of. I sort of feel that my value here is only to bring in my juniors, that they want me to continue to stay here coz' im bringing in ppl with talents for IH next sem.

I haven't made a decision yet. But i know no matter which decision i choose, there will be trade-offs. I hope i can make right choice.

Name: yixin

I care about how I look, how I dress, and how others think about me. Most IMPORTANTLY, I care about my family and friends.

I'm obsessed with classical music! Current favourite: Smetana- The Moldau

All our lives we search for someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance the song of heartbreak and carry our hopes within us, wondering if somewhere,somehow there is someone searching for us.

Dance as though no one is watching you. Love as though you have never been hurt before. Sing as though no one can hear you. Live as though heaven is on earth.
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Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results. ~~~

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