The results were released today. Didn’t do well at all. I expected this kind of grades though, since I didn’t put in as much effort as I did last semester. Really grateful to God that I managed to pass all my subjects. However, I have another upcoming headache now. What specialization should I choose?

I don’t think my results are good enough for me to get into banking and finance, since I had a D for one of my subjects. Totally spoil the record sheet man. I don’t mind a few Cs, but having a D totally ruined the whole thing. In the first place, banking and finance has never been my top few choices anyway, but I think things came to a turn this morning when I visited the bank. I think working in a bank is not too bad after all. Everybody there looked so professional and nice. The senior bank officer that attended to me thought that I had already graduated from university as I sounded very professional in the way I spoke. I was quite complimented by that statement. It made my day.

I have never been good with numbers, and I really don’t want my grades to suffer if I choose banking and finance. I have just been told that our grades will be viewed across the level together with the accountancy students for our class of honors. Also, no matter what specialization you choose, how well you do is not determined by how you fare within your specialization, but across the whole level. That’s not fair man!!!!!!!!! We are doing different subjects in our specializations!!!!!!! Thus, there is no room for error. I really have to make the right choice for my specialization. Which is the right choice? Human resource, marketing or banking and finance?????

Had a game of tennis with Mrs Ching, my OB tutor today. Just wanna say that i really feel so disappointed today. My stamina didn't even last me for half an hour. I took 3 breaks in that short hour. Its just so weird, because this has never happened before. Just felt so out of breath, and i was seeing stars in the air.

Its not as if that i haven't been exercising for a long time. I just played tennis for 4 hours on sun. Felt so apologetic to Mrs Ching, because im the one behaving like a 50-year old granny. I think i must really work on my stamina. Think my stamina is still not up to standard yet. Im seeing lots of question marks in the air... coz' i never thought of my stamina as being that bad. It can't be asthma rite?????? Well, i never suffered any case of asthma when i was young, so this can't possibly be a case of asthma. So, what can explain this erratic behavior?

Mrs Ching was pretty nice about the whole thing, which made me feel even worse. I was the one who ask her out, and i felt that i was wasting her time. I FEEL SOOOOOOO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went to have a hair cut at far east yesterday. Costed me 20 bucks. Went with my ex-roomie Pei hiang, coz she told me that the hair cut there is not bad. I was quite satisfied with the hairstyle myself, coz' my hair is much neater now... i changed it to side-parting and i did a bit of layering. At least my face doesn't look as long as a horse now.

None of my classmates could tell that i cut my hair!!!!!!!!!! So offended! This is the most expensive haircut i ever had, and no one could tell the difference. Sob sob...

One consolation at least is that the Malay guy whom washed my hair for me at that shop was really quite cute... Pei hiang, u agree with me rite???? Gal, you should really let him wash your hair next time!!!!!!!! Its so comfortable... you really feel like lying there for a million years!!!!!!!!
Oh my goodness!!!!!! I'm on clouds nine!!!!!! The really plus point about washing your hair is that the guy is really very cute!!!!!!!!!!! Haha....

Joel called me and asked me out again. I’m really not very keen on going on with him. It’s kind of awkward actually, coz’ we were together once. I still feel kind of guilty towards him, coz’ I knew I was the once who let him down. He has been a very sweet and nice boyfriend, but we just weren’t suited for each other I felt. Now thinking back, I think I was really quite a lousy girlfriend. I just didn’t try to understand him enough and I was also quite stubborn. Well, I supposed his classmates were right to call me a bitch.

Perhaps this is also the reason why I haven’t got myself attached yet. Coz’ I feel that I’m not ready for a relationship yet. I won’t be willing to change myself for a guy. I won’t force myself to like what the guy likes. The guy really has to accept me for who I am. No matter how frequent I talk about wanting to get attached, I know I’m not ready for it yet.

I don’t want to give Joel the wrong idea by agreeing to go out with him. I just have this instinct that he hasn’t given up on our relationship yet.

Name: yixin

I care about how I look, how I dress, and how others think about me. Most IMPORTANTLY, I care about my family and friends.

I'm obsessed with classical music! Current favourite: Smetana- The Moldau

All our lives we search for someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance the song of heartbreak and carry our hopes within us, wondering if somewhere,somehow there is someone searching for us.

Dance as though no one is watching you. Love as though you have never been hurt before. Sing as though no one can hear you. Live as though heaven is on earth.
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Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results. ~~~

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