There are 2 lessons today. 1 lec and 1 tutorial. Nothing important was covered during both, as the lecturers were just talking about the course outline. I just feel so sianz the whole of today, and I don't know the reason. After the lecture, ++++++++ came. That explains why I was feeling sianz the whole day. Sigh...

Later in the evening, there was training. I'm glad Zi Yih was with me, coz' I don't really enjoy walking alone to SRC. Heard that there was this new NIE girl Reinette who is super good, can hit very hard balls, and that we will be meeting her today. I wasn't looking forward to that at all.

We had a game of doubles during training. Me and zi yih, versus kenny and reinette. This was the most relaxing and fun game of doubles I had ever played in my life. I really felt no pressure or stress to perform at all. I must admit that the way I played today even surprised me. I managed to get most of my volleys pass the net, and I also kept most of my balls in.

The chemistry between me and zi yih was amazing today. I hoped there are many more of this day to come. She covered me for balls that I could not take, and we really played much better than how we played against Jaime tat day.

Reinette was really good. I sparred with her before the doubles match, and I realised she can really hit very hard, much harder than me. Also, she can volley quite well. Most importantly, I realised that she is able to return most of the balls zi yih and me whacked at her during the match. I was so amazed. She is such an all-rounded player. Its going to be a tough fight for the team this year. There are so many good players around. Heard that xiaohan's junior is coming in too. Xiaohan is so good, her junior must be of a certain standard too. How bad can a player from RJC be rite?

Sigh sigh... zi yih tells me not to think too much, coz' I will be overstressing myself out. But, I can't help it. I really hope me and zi yih will be able to make it into the team together.

This year’s birthday is a pretty quiet affair. Got lots of birthday wishes through SMS. I was really touched that people even bothered to remember my birthday. Some really old friends whom I’ve lost contact for quite a time actually msg me to wish me Happy Birthday. There wasn’t much presents this year, but I’m not going to make a big fuss out of it, coz’ there is nothing I really need right now, so I don’t exactly need any presents from anyone.

I’m basically quite an easily satisfied person. I’ve always believed that the best gift comes from the heart. I have already received the best birthday present this year. It’s a little decoration of colorful papers which I can pin it up on my study table. What’s so special about this little gift is that it contained a lot of heart-felt wishes- a lot of inspirational messages and a lot of encouragement. Juz wanna say a BIG THANK YOU to zi yih, for the time and effort put into this beautiful decoration.

The most touching SMS came from Mum. Throughout these years, Mum has never send me any sms to wish me Happy Birthday. I was really surprised that I received an sms from her in the morning of my birthday.

“Happy Birthday, my dear, wish you good luck”
Mum

I almost cried when I saw the msg. I was so touched! Mum’s use of language wasn’t very good, and she sent me such a beautiful sentence on my birthday! Isn’t that sweet? That made my day.

Did this personality test on which leader I resembled most. GOT A SHOCK!!!!!!!!!!!

I was watching Project Superstar on Channel U last night. It was the guys’ revival round. I particularly like these 2 male contestants, Derrick and Hagen. Derrick has always struck me as this cute and unassuming guy who can really sing. As for Hagen, I really like his smile and the way he dances on stage to bring up the atmosphere in the studio. Also, there is always this bright spark in his eyes which exudes a sense of confidence. However, I did not see this in Hagen during the revival round last night. He seemed to lose all confidence and his morale was an all time low.

It suddenly reminded me of myself. The incident that took away all my confidence still remains vivid in my mind. No matter how hard I try, I can’t overcome it. 8 years have passed, but it seems like the incident just happened yesterday. Coincidentally, this was also the incident that boosted much of Hui Fang’s confidence that you see now. It’s amazing how an incident like this can bring so much difference to our lives.

I missed the old me, the girl who is vocal and outspoken, and never shy to speak up in class. The confidence that I will succeed even before I embark on doing something, as well as the enthusiasm to follow it through are all my strong points which I don’t see in myself now. I’m never quite prepared to talk about this incident to anybody, because I can’t even face up to it myself. I never knew the exact reason as to why I was treated that way, but I don’t bear grudges. I just felt that it’s a pity that I can’t pick myself up from that incident.

Derrick! Congrats on your entry to the semi-finals.
Hagen! Pursue your dream and don’t give up!

Well, just came back from Hong Kong... These are some of the pixs i took there.

Why is it so hard to get an earlier date for the driving test? I don’t want to wait till the end of September. If only I had pass it the first time round. It’s really a disappointment. Although I didn’t expect to pass the first time round, I felt that I had done reasonably well on that day itself to pass. Part of the reason was that I was really unlucky that day to get a strict tester. I thought I could have passed, because I didn’t commit the mistakes I usually did during my driving lessons. No mounting of kerb, which I always did without fail during my lessons, and also no knocking down of guide poles when parking. Everything went so well during the test. If only I had not turn into the wrong lane for the slope. Perhaps, that would not have resulted in an immediate failure. Es una lástima.

Sigh… school is starting soon. I really hate to count the number of holidays left. I fear this new beginning.

Firstly, I don’t know if I will be able to do well in this specialization. I will be all alone in this specialization, overcoming the challenges that come my way. My close friends like Xiuhui and Liyi are all in banking and finance. With my grades, I could have chosen banking and finance and be comfortable sticking to them just like in my 1st year. I don’t know why I chose the hard route. I hope I made the right choice because I feel that I’m not cut out for something that requires lots of speculation and calculation.

Suddenly, I began to miss my first semester when my room mate Pei Hiang was still around. It’s always enjoyable to have someone’s company. It would be great to have someone of the same specialization living with you. If Pei Hiang was around, I think both of us would have chosen Marketing as our specialization. We would go to class together every morning, have lunch together, and do our projects together. Both of us anti social people would really get on well together. It’s not easy to find someone I feel comfortable with, and I really miss that feeling in university after Pei Hiang left.

I really admire Xiuhui for having Jasmine as her room mate. Same faculty, same specialization, same classes, and they take part in the same hall activities. I feel that I’m drifting apart from Xiuhui, even though we are just living a hall apart. Hall 13 people may not be as fun loving and achievement oriented as Hall 12, but I feel that the people there are friendlier and people oriented, and that I can better fit into the culture of Hall 13.

Also, I have to think of what activities to join to earn points to retain my single room in my final year. I really don’t want to take part in hall activities unless I don’t have a choice. There is no ivp next semester, so it’s going to be hard to earn points if I don’t take part in hall activities. This is going to be a headache.

Name: yixin

I care about how I look, how I dress, and how others think about me. Most IMPORTANTLY, I care about my family and friends.

I'm obsessed with classical music! Current favourite: Smetana- The Moldau

All our lives we search for someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance the song of heartbreak and carry our hopes within us, wondering if somewhere,somehow there is someone searching for us.

Dance as though no one is watching you. Love as though you have never been hurt before. Sing as though no one can hear you. Live as though heaven is on earth.
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Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results. ~~~

% JJ
% Pei Hiang
% Licheng
% Cindy Chan
% Xiuhui
% Liyi
% Ian
% Alvin
% Kang Li
% Soo Chin