I used to think its dumb to be willing to change for a person you like. So when Andie was telling me about how much she had changed for the guy she likes, i was quite indignant.

Now, I finally see her point. The same situation is happening to me now. I'm changing quite a lot for him. I can't believe that I am actually willing to put in the time and effort to change myself for him. Perhaps he doesn't notice it. I think its sort of funny because I'm trying different ways to impress him.

I used to speak before I think. But now, I will think before I speak. I'm trying to be more mature and objective in the way I deal with things. I'm not so quick-tempered now. In the past, I used to blow my top over small little things. Now, I hold my temper. My patience has increased. I'm sure zi yih has noticed it from the persistence of me trying to stay in court for as long as possible during my match against xiaohan. I'm trying to improve on my volleys and match play and trying very hard to become a more confident person, all because of him.

However, I feel that it is now time to let go of him. Of course, I will continue in my efforts to become a better person. But I feel that there is no point to continue in this 'relationship', because I believe that it would not last if it had started.

It's now time to move on with my life. A new start, and a fresh beginning.

Me and Zi Yih won our doubles champion today.(both sides play like shit though haha) I was really glad that we won. I don't want to see zi yih losing to xiaohan a second time this week. I know she has strong pride, and I was pretty worried that she won't be able to accept her lost to xiaohan in singles.

"You will become a stronger person after you fall". I agree with what John says.

Zi yih's pride has helped me become a more confident person. I hope that I will be able to ride on this confidence in no matter what I do.

Felt a little hostile after our win. All the acjc girls were congratulating zi yih. I felt a little left out. I sort of feel like our win is mainly due to her effort. ( which is true to a certain extent lah)
Felt that the acjc girls weren't really very friendly to me. They are all in a world of their own.

Well, at least Cheryl and sze hsien were both appreciative, which made me felt much better. I really appreciate the both of them, because they made team training fun. I enjoy being around them and playing doubles against them. Its so exciting and interesting, with quality shots and jokes from both sides.

Felt a little bad for not talking to Angeline more. She is a new entry to the hall, and I feel that I should have spent more time talking to her or at least walk back to hall together after training. After all, I'm already a senior and should take care of my juniors. I hope she doesn't feel left out, coz' me and zi yih are so cliquish.

I appreciate all the things I have around me now. I thank God for everything.

Name: yixin

I care about how I look, how I dress, and how others think about me. Most IMPORTANTLY, I care about my family and friends.

I'm obsessed with classical music! Current favourite: Smetana- The Moldau

All our lives we search for someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance the song of heartbreak and carry our hopes within us, wondering if somewhere,somehow there is someone searching for us.

Dance as though no one is watching you. Love as though you have never been hurt before. Sing as though no one can hear you. Live as though heaven is on earth.
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Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results. ~~~

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