Yesterday was our semi-finals match against hall 15. I had expected something challenging, and was really disappointed that it didn't turn out that way. I thought it would be a narrow victory of 3-2, but we won 5-0. The men's doubles was the most exciting match of the day, with 4 ivp standard guys in the game. The match could go either way! Glad that we won though, but I felt a little sorry for Raymond, coz' I could understand his feelings completely.
I felt that my playing was really sucky yest, coz' my balls were flat with little spin. (Don't know why, but everything was so off... hopefully it's just the wet weather) Most of my balls were going out! Well, there were so many supporters during our match yest, and hmm... I thought perhaps I could just show off a little, but that didn't happen.
I felt really tired after my match. Not just physically, but mentally as well. I've never felt this way before... it's as if I was drained of my energy completely. I was glad that our opponents posted no threat to us, if not I think I might not have lasted the match with yest's sucky playing. Thank goodness John was around as my doubles partner to cover for me. I think without his support and encouragment, I would have lost my temper yest. Surprisingly, Uncle Don was pretty nice to me during the match yest. I'm glad he is no longer ignoring me. Seriously, I was a little affected when he started to ignore me for the past few weeks. I'm someone who really really need a lot of attention.
Somehow I felt that Uncle Don could read right through me yest, even though I didn't talk much to him. He somehow knew that I was feeling jittery, and was giving me the necessary support that I needed during my game yest and after that as well. Hiaz... I guess I could never be able to hide anything from Don and John.
Zi Yih said that it's always so obvious for others to know what I was thinking, coz' I show everything on my face. Do I? She said I should learn how to hide my feelings, coz' others could be affected by my feelings. I guess she is right. BUT THAT IS SO FAKE!!!!!!!!!! But I think what she said made sense as well.
I'm glad I managed to survive yest. Thank you god for giving me the strength.