Haven't been sleeping well these few days. Don't know why. Just have difficulty breathing everytime when I'm about to doze off. It's really quite irritating. Anyway, my mood has been fluctuating these few days. I guess it's partly due to the lack of rest. Yesterday, me and Reinette played our doubles match against Angeline and Hsien. Power man! Reinette was on form, really happy for her. Overall, I think I could have done better i guess. It's still a far way off from my expectations. I don't know why, but I felt quite a bit of pressure when I was playing the match. The pressure didn't come from the opponents surprisingly, it came from Reinette. Having to deal with the fact that I wasn't playing well, and trying to support my partner throughout the match really put quite a bit of pressure on me. I was glad that she was playing very well, but I knew on the other hand, I had to pull myself together to minimize my mistakes when I was really feeling not on form. I guess it's because I was so used to having my partner supporting me, so now that I had to play the supporting role, it became rather tough.

Somehow, when I partnered Reinette, I became more risk-adverse. It's like there's a cap placed over me to prevent me for going for my shots. I wish I could have someone beside me telling me 'Don't worry, just go for your shots! It's okay to make the mistakes'. That someone doesn't have to be a very fantastic player, just someone who can accept risks and a certain percentage of unforced errors. She doesn't even have to be playing fantastically for the match... she just has to be someone that understands, someone encouraging.

Okay, I guess this is good training for me... learning how to play the supporting role, instead of being supported. Yea... an additional experience gained. If I can deal with this, I will be a stronger person.

Received a little surprise from Warick today. Okay... I felt that it's kind of weird. Coz out of the sudden he called me and told me he had something to pass to me. I was wondering what he had to pass to me in the middle of the night... supposed it must be something important since he said it was some admin stuff he had to settle with me.

Well, really got a shock when he appeared in front of me with a letter. I gave him the suspicious look and suspected that he must be up to no good. After all, why will he walk all the way from hall 15 to my hall in the middle of the night just to pass me a letter? It's really weird, isn't it?

Anyway, i must admit that I was a little touched after reading the letter, even though more than half of his letter was crappy, lame jokes. Yea... just a little touched by his concern. Yes, I do find him irritating, loud and weird at times, but I was really surprised at his sensitivity also. Okay, I know he really meant good and hope the best for me. A big, heartfelt thanks to Warick aka steady turtle!

There are so many recruitment talks coming up lately. So many prestigious companies! Although many may yearn to work for a reputable employer, somehow, I just can't imagine myself working in those MNCs or big companies. I think I'm not intellectual enough to work there, and that most probably I won't be able to adapt to the fast-paced work environment. Yea, so actually, I don't really want to sign up for any recruiment talks. Yet, something in me tells me that I should just have a go at it. Who knows the ideal case may just happen i.e. some fellow might think that I have the potential and offer me a contract even before graduation. (Yea... and the chances are one in a million). Dream on!

Okay... I know it's coming closer to graduation, but I really hate to step out into the workforce. This is an unpractical, childish thinking, but I just can't help it. And the financial burden at home means that I have to find a job fast, and the job has to offer reasonably good pay. With my credentials, it's almost impossible. Sigh...

Argh... preparing resumes really give me a headache... my resume writing skills suxs! Anyway, I'm gonna send in a similar resume for HSBC as I did for Orange Business. Don't think my resume will get selected though, since I wasn't selected by Orange. Wonder if there's something wrong with the resume's content or format? Well, I copied it from one of the candidates applying for a job at my PA company! Hah... If it doesn't get through again this time, I will use back my old resume format.

I saw these online! Damn nice... I'm going to buy them! Hope I win the bid!

Name: yixin

I care about how I look, how I dress, and how others think about me. Most IMPORTANTLY, I care about my family and friends.

I'm obsessed with classical music! Current favourite: Smetana- The Moldau

All our lives we search for someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance the song of heartbreak and carry our hopes within us, wondering if somewhere,somehow there is someone searching for us.

Dance as though no one is watching you. Love as though you have never been hurt before. Sing as though no one can hear you. Live as though heaven is on earth.
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Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results. ~~~

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